2012’s word was Abundance
2012 Summed up in one sentence: It was the best of time and the worst of times. I fell into darkness and upheaval and yet I found peace and quiet in the midst of all. This year didn’t go as it expected.
From Peak Experiences to Sitting Still
The first half of the year was full of peak experiences coupled with all time lows. They each taught me the power that love has over fear. The inner strength and power that lies within me. Each of these experiences allowed me to become more vulnerable and to feel the feelings as is. There was a shift within my inner compass that proved to be more resilient than i could imagine.
Then I had to stopped. I was burned out. I was crying constantly and swirling in a cycle of compare and despair. I have lost my passion, voice and spirit. There comes the point that a shift needed to happen and this time needed to be from the inside out.
Slowly but surely I let go each of the obligations. I started to take time off to sleep in, watch TV, and a just be still. I stopped running around the city like a madwomen in between 12 step meetings, fitness classes, work, business strategy, etc.
The week leading up to Sandy proved that my stress levels were reaching new highs and causing me health havoc. By the time Sandy hit and turn my city, my world upside down I knew I was done living at 100mph. Things needed to be shifted even further.
I spend more time at home. I allowed myself to declutter my space, let go of grad school books, clothes.
I went back to therapy and I am loving it. I found an amazing health practice where all of my doctors and medical records are in one place. I have fallen in love with my cute little town of Jersey City. Well I continue to rest and reflect.
I have gone home to PR and reconnected with my family. I was present to experiences in a place of love as opposed to resentment. Most importantly I am living in a place of radical acceptance.
What about 2013?
Alright, I am off to celebrate the end of 2012, I am looking forward to spend time with a dear friend and heading home for my burn the shit list/desire ritual for 2013.
I am curious to hear, did you have a word for 2012? Did you noticed patterns and experiences coming through this year? Did 2012 turned your world upside down? Feel free to share in the comment section or shoot me an email at laura [at] joyfulshimmy.com