Despite my mind telling me oh I am too tired, I have too much to work. I am grateful for commitments that remind me to show up.
About 5 months ago, I committed to take a month of IntenSati Creative Workshop and see what it was all about. After one class I became a believer of the power that positive thoughts, affirmations and intentions can have in my life. There is something about the class, the community, Erin, just all of it, that takes you to a new level of awareness, acceptance and action. It is a challenging class that I get to jump and meditate for what it feels like an eternity but its just a couple of hours.
The workshop itself has changed my relationship with exercise from something that I must do in order to meet certain results. To where I am today, I detach from the physical results. I do it because it is fun. I do it because I love the feeling of bliss afterward. I do enjoy seeing my body slowly getting stronger and fit yet what I love the most is the feeling of accomplishment that I get to feel after a challenging class.
This month’s theme is all about digging deeper in the spirituality. I have to admit it comes at the perfect time as I want to push aside all of these awesome intentions and stay in what feels comfortable which is the status quo. For today, I commit to my intention of completing a half marathon, that a year from today I will continue to feel fit, sexy and most importantly trusting my body. It means getting out of my comfort zone and stretching myself a little bit.
In the class last night, I managed to hold 45 seconds of plank. I could feel my body getting energize more and more. It was as if I was wired to do this. A lot of it is mind over matter, because I can hold it but my mind tells me otherwise.
This morning, I had a session with my personal trainer which was all about doing stretching for runners, specific movements to allow me to run more effectively and working on my core. Well, I ended up having 3 rounds of 1 minute plank. Again this was all about mind over matter. My body is strong enough and I can do it. It is uncomfortable but it can be done. My mind on the other hand reminds me I am too tired, I am too weak, blah blah. For today, I committed to just repeat sati affirmations I can do it, don’t give up, you can do it, you are strong enough. I made it through it.